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The Last Night [ArminxReader!] [AU] (2/2)

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A/n: Blood,mentions of cutting,angst and maaayybbee fluff

To those lost, This is the second part of my "Yours to Hold" series under a new name! Everything else will remain the same.

You've been warned~

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It had only been a couple of days since you last were seen, but to Armin it felt like it had been forever since his blue eyes laid upon you.

It all started with you leaving early that day during lunch and of course, he could only watch you leave the outside school yard and into town for no reason whatsoever. Before that day, he started to notice the dark bags under your eyes and the fact that you were paler then usual. The others brushed it off as him being too worried for the girl but his intuitions told him differently and of course, those little voices only screamed louder when he got a peek of the bandages and gauze that stood out under your black jacket.

It was the last class of the day and Armin was called up to the front desk of the main office in the last fifteen minutes of his biology class. Fixing the collar of his shirt with his nervous hands, he soon stepped in and looked at the woman behind the desk, her sharp silver eyes hidden behind her thin reading glasses while her silver hair was short with bangs hovering over her right eye. "Rico Brzenska" was stated on her nameplate and her sharp and uninterested tone snapped Armin out of his thoughts.

"Armin Arlert, right?"

"Yes Mam, I was called up here by principle Erwin" He said nervous, feeling himself becoming scared underneath her somewhat sharp gaze as she let out a sigh

"Unfortunately, Erwin had a last minute meeting with Vice Principle Pyxis so I'm gonna get straight to the point" She said while pulling out a black folder,dropping it in front of him on her desk as she spoke again "These are the assignments from the past couple of days for [first] [last]. She's been absent for quite a while and obviously, It was Erwin and the rest of the administrators concerned. He called you here to ask if you could take these to her house and drop them off while checking up on her" 

He picked up the somewhat light black folder and nodded, placing it in his bag as she gave him a sticky note "This is her address and apartment number. Tell her that Erwin and Pyxis wish her to return as soon as she possibly can"

"Yes mam" He said nervously, taking the little note in his hand before walking out of the office before seeing Eren and Mikasa waiting for him by the school entrance

"So what did they want?" Eren asked curiously before his eyes landed upon a black folder and a sticky note in the blond's hands

"Oh...w-well they wanted me to take some of [first's] over to her apartment and see if she's alright"

"Oh well let's go then! The sooner we drop them off, the sooner we head to the arcade to hang out" Eren said with a grin before leading them out of the building and off campus, making the thirty minute trip from the school over to your apartment.

"No way...."

"She lives here?!"

"...[first] knows how to live, huh?"

All three stood in shock, seeing how luxurious the apartments you were living in were before they head inside and over to the elevator, stepping inside and pushed the number to your floor. Silence overtook the ride up and of course, Armin's heart was beating out of his chest faster then a drag race car driving with everything on the line.

A 'ding' was heard, snapping Armin out of his thoughts before walking to your apartment door. He gulped nervously, his palms sweating a bit before he finally gained the courage to knock on the door but as he did, the door creaked a bit on its own. It had been unlocked and of course, Eren would be the one to step in without thinking.

"[first]? Are you there?" He asked around the seemingly empty apartment, Armin and Mikasa soon following in after as they walked around a bit.

"Is she really here?" The brown haired boy asks once more, Seeing his step-sister walk down to the end of the hall. Mikasa pressed her ear against the door,trying to listen for any noises in there but didn't hear a thing, though her nose soon told her differently.

Without hesitation, her foot soon made contact with the door,slamming it open and off the top hinges before her eyes laid upon a sight that made her heart freeze in place.

There you were,laying against your bed with your eyes closed and blood slipping out from your wrists and neck slowly.

"Armin! Eren! Call 9-1-1 now!!" She shouted to the two males, making them run over to her before their own eyes widen at what was happening. Armin soon took out his cell phone and called for an emergency ambulance while Eren tried to help Mikasa put pressure against your cuts to stop the bleeding.

==Few Hours Later==

You didn't know where you were but you did know one thing and that was the fact that you were still alive. 

'Ugh this stench is burning my nose'
 You soon thought to yourself, your ears picking up the sounds of people passing by and a heart monitor close by-

'Wait...a heart monitor?' 

[color] eyes soon opened slowly, trying to adjust to the amount of white light that greeted you harshly along with the smell of sanitizers and Chlorine. 'Great....I'm in a god forsaken hospital' You thought harshly, moving one of your hands to your head but felt it being held by another. You gazed over to who the stranger was but as soon as you saw blond hair, you knew exactly who it was.

Armin Arlert was sleeping by your bedside and he held your hand in both of his in a grasp that told you that he was holding onto it like you were his lifeline. Your eyes soften on his sleeping form before realizing that the bandages that were once on your arms were now gone, except for the ones that were on your wrists and neck.

"Oh god he must've saw me like this..." You muttered lowly to yourself, shame washing over you as you lowered your head away from his sleeping self and out the window. Your heart couldn't deny the fact that you had fallen for the gentle hearted bookworm but for his own safety you tried to forget about the feelings you held for him yet couldn't find the strength to move on from those feelings.

You were always like this, ever since you were disowned by your own parents. You figured you would never be good enough for anyone and of course, those thoughts seem to continue to drag you down. That was when you had started the affair with the steel calling to your skin like a siren and as many times as you promised yourself that would be the last time you did that, you seemed to forget about that and commit the loving yet deadly sin once more. It turned into a vicious cycle that you soon couldn't find in you to break and quit.

You soon felt him stir a bit next to you, making you look at him as he sat up and rubbed his eyes with his free hand before looking at your now awakened form.

"[F-First]...Y-You're ok?" He asked nervously, his blue eyes staring at the bandages on your neck in concern before gripping your hand in his a bit, not allowing you to answer his question as he spoke again "Why...Why did you try to take your own life?!"

You flinched at the tone in his voice, but you couldn't honestly blame him for being upset with you. "Because Armin, I'm not that important...No one would've missed me anyway" You said bluntly, your eyes holding back any emotions that wanted to flow out.

Armin couldn't believe what he had heard, his anger starting to boil as he grabbed you by your chin and made you look at him "No one would've missed you? Is that how you really feel?" He questioned you seriously, his eyes searching yours for any trace of reasoning as you stared back into his.

"Armin, it's not how I feel but it's what I know! Who could ever want someone whose nothing but a constant disappointment and a freak that's different, huh?!" 

"You obviously don't know how I feel then because I love you, [First]!" He shouted back, the words taking the both of you by surprise as you felt your heart skip a beat. 

"What....You can't be....Armin, Why would you want someone like me...I'm not like Mikasa or Krista..I'm nothing special" You mumbled, tears starting to fall as you finally broke down in front of him.

The blond hair boy watched you break down in front of him, his heart aching at the sight in front of him before he pulled you as close as he could while burying his face into your hair "I know you're not like them...but that's why I fell for you. You may not think you're special but you are to me, [first] and have been since the first day I saw you"

You broke down even more at his words,your fingers clenching his sweater as he held you closer to him then before, almost as if you would slip away again if he were to let you go and this time, he was going to make sure it didn't happen again.

===TimeSkip===

It didn't take long for the school to find out about you and Armin but with all honesty, you didn't care much about it and neither did Armin. You both were content and happy with each other, your heart slowly yet surely healing with each second you spent with him along with the cuts that became close to non-existent on your skin. After everything that happened, you threw away the sharp blades into the local city dump and Armin was there with you as your support system just as you were his.

That day, Armin saw you start over as someone new and of course you still you had your demons, everyone does of course but he wouldn't have it any other way. Just as he was your savior hidden behind books, you were his angel hidden behind scars and as they said, time can heal everything from a few scars to a lonely heart

~End~
Final part is now here! I hope you guys enjoyed this and I'm so sorry that it took so long and probably ended up crappy Dx

I do not own the characters of Snk/AoT
And you now belong to this blond haired angel ->Armin Arlert (Joy) [V5] <-
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landra15's avatar
Man, he's an angel!!